So Final Fantasy XV, right, I have a lot of feelings I gotta let out, man.
Completely unrelated to the recovery this blog is supposed to document but lmao when have I ever stuck with that.
I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS.
Like. I didn’t think I’d like it at all? I thought it would disappoint me because I’ve been here since Versus XIII was announced all those years ago. I’ve seen this game evolve and change over time and I felt less and less about it as more stuff came out.
But playing it for myself without everyone else’s opinions getting in the way, I grew to love it a lot. Like wow, who knew that actually PLAYING THE GAME would ALLOW ME TO FORM MY OWN OPINION amirite. lmao.
But no really, this game means a lot to me now. I say shit like PROMPTO IS MY SON but I really mean that he resonates with me because I see a lot of myself in Prompto, and in a lot of ways his character is how I wish I could be despite all of my sadness and feelings of inadequacy. I didn’t expect any character in this game to resonate with me to that extent but here we are. Precious Prompto, my sunshine child.
idk idk the ending made me feel a lot of things and then there’s Luna and Noctis and all of them and ahhhhh feelings ;;
Then of course Episode Ignis just came out and that made me feel SO MUCH. Episode Prompto did, too, but in a different way. Prompto’s ep was very much about Prompto which I appreciate, you get to know more about him and his backstory and you learn about him WITH him and I love that so much. Episode Ignis is more related to the plot, as is fitting because of who Ignis is, and as such it has this emotional impact to it that’s very different. There are 3 endings and all of them have their own pain attached to them, if that makes sense.
I prefer the general ending, wherein Ignis loses his sight and the course of events takes place in line with the main game and go toward that ending, and how it shows Noctis thanking Ignis for being there with him and for his sacrifices. I appreciated that a lot more than the happy alternate ending where EVERYBODY (except Luna) LIVES because there’s more emotional weight to it. Like it made me cry my little eyes out. Seeing Noctis’ reflection as a 20 year old kid in Ignis’ glasses really got to me, because it never occurred to me that the last thing Ignis ever saw was Noctis at that age, so he didn’t get to see what Noctis looked like as a 30 year old man. The bad ending was just sad in a bad way that wasn’t emotionally charged lmao I got it by sucking at the game but hey, I saw it.
I just really appreciate how wrong I was proven by this game. I didn’t think it’d be as emotionally charged as it really is and becomes increasingly more so with the new DLC’s that come out. And while I have my criticisms, one of them being that there need to be all these DLC’s and movies and anime and whatnot just to get the full story and full emotional impact. And there are more DLC to come. Also, the women in the game are very underplayed and Luna especially got the short end of the stick with little to no character development and they just really fucked her over for no reason. I had to watch the movie Kingsglaive just to get to know her better lmao and that movie is hard to come by, I was lucky to find it so cheap.
But I digress. It really isn’t much of a Final Fantasy to me, it’s a good game in its own right but it really doesn’t feel like an FF game. It feels like a game all its own, and it has fantasy elements but it is a “fantasy based on reality” after all so I can’t really… like, I can’t say it’s not what I expected. And it’s not bad in any way, I like the modern take on fantasy elements. I like that they have smart phones and cars and how Prompto talks in internet lingo sometimes lmao it’s just very different from past FF’s and that’s not a bad thing. It’s just, idk, I don’t really have a strong opinion about this. It just took a long time to warm up to because as a Final Fantasy title, I had expectations initially. But when I cast those aside, I got to enjoy the game for what it is rather than what it could’ve been ten years ago.
But overall, I love it. I’m not without my (constructive) criticisms, but I do love it.
So much. SO MUCH.
I was going to say more but I don’t remember what. I’ll edit this later if I feel I have more to add.
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