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Protected: i sit and i wait for the morning to come
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take your silver spoon, dig your grave
00000 Monday 6 February 2017 @ 2:11 am

So I’m off to a gr8 start keeping this blog active like I wanted to this year. I haven’t been journaling much at all lately. I just haven’t felt up to writing, much less anything to write about. But I’ll try. I might try jsut doing monthly blogs if I can’t bring myself to write individual ones more often idk, I just want to try to keep writing. It’s all I’ve got, really.

But anyway, so far the Abilify is working pretty well. My doctor increased it to 10mg and it was making me shaky but it’s gone away now. The restless fatigue bullshit has gone, too, so that’s good. I’ve been a lot more mentally and emotionally stable which is good, but school has been making me super stressed so… that’s great. I’m just very tired and burnt out. Like… I have all the symptoms of burnout and all I want to do is sleep, I am so tired of everything. And now that I’m finding some sense of mental stability for the most part I just want to live my life instead of being bogged down by stress. But I don’t even know what I can DO to live my life tbh lmao. I just feel really alone and out of place when I’m at school and then I come home to piles of homework and stress about shit to come. Idk. I just really want to run away and start over sometimes. Sell all my shit and move far away. That kind of daydreamy bullshit lmao.

I just really can’t wait to be done with undergrad and hopefully be able to go on to grad school. I’ve got to start planning out what I’m gonna do if I can’t get financial aid to pay for it, or at least help. Like if I can’t get a fellowship or whatever, I’ll have to start looking for a job but it’d have to be one that I can actually do with my disabilities and one that will pay well enough for me to go off of disability and lsdjfsldlfja it’s. It’s frustrating and difficult and I don’t want to think about this right now.

Anyway, we got Kira spayed and that went okay. She has a tattoo in her ear because apparently they do that now lmao so that annoys me but it’s okay. It healed up well, as have her stitches and she’s back to her speed racer self. But I had to take her to the vet for other reasons unrelated to the spay. She had a fall and landed on her left hip and kept limping but the vet said there was no injury, just that she has something called patellar luxation, which is a birth defect that causes the kneecap to go out of place at times and that the fall may have just exacerbated it. But it’s a permanent condition and she will limp when it goes out of place and be in some pain until she learns to manage to get it back in place. But she seems to be doing okay, we have pain meds for when it gets too bad but she’s been okay since the vet visit. So that’s just something we have to deal with and surgery is an option later on if it gets worse or becomes really bothersome. So I’ll keep that in mind, I would just rather it not come to that.

Other than that there is really nothing going on. I’m just tired of school and tired of my house and tired in general and I really want this year to be done with. I’m ready for 2018 already because then I will be done with everything and in a new chapter of my life and I’m more than ready for that right now. It’s just more waiting games and this semester is going to be grueling and keeping my shit in perspective is hard. It’s just a semester and it’ll all be over by May and hopefully I’ll be able to walk at graduation and get to go back next semester for a couple classes to get my full 120 credits (because I’m 4 short still lmfao 4 jfc) and and

And the best thing

I get to see Stevie Nicks in March. OHHHH MY GODDDDDD I AM SO EXCITED IT’S ALL I’M LIVING FOR AT THIS POINT JUST TO HEAR STEVIE’S VOICE IN MY EARS LIVE I AM SO PSYCHED. Like the week after the show is a grueling one with my thesis presentation and then a group presentation for my religion class and exams and papers due and shit buT BUT. BEFORE ALL THAT I GET TO SEE STEVIE AND CRY MY EYES OUT AND CRY AND SING EVERYTHING OUT AND I AM SO EXCITED. I just ahhhh I can’t wait. It’s making everything worthwhile. I’M DOIN IT FOR STEVIE.

Also I really need a new layout. I love this one but I want a colorful one. I might just use an old one for a bit because lol time like I have time to make a new one like I really want to. Sobs.

♥ Brittany

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Protected: stuff and things, things and stuff
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